dearest readers! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL~

haha im pretty lazy to blog these few days. so i shall not be lazy and start blogging again. haha!

had been working on morning shift these few DayS. DAYS. many days la. on and off ones. BTH. nvm. i shall be contented. and this whole week im working morning shift and im super happy. so i shall not complain so much at work already. haha!

today i reached kbox at 12.58pm when im suppose to start work at 11am. tell u wad. i was NOT informed that im still on the morning shift. ARghh. so i ended work late today. at 9pm. how sad~ but its okie. bao bao waited for me after work and had dinner together. haha! how good bao bao is right! love this friend so much! haha!

i went to Mount Faber again on Christmas Day. and im soooo happy to be there again. i simply love the "tree" la. and again, i saw fireworks. ohhhhhhhh... how nice!!! haha! wanted to go in to this place. i dont know what name. but the cover charge is super duper expensive. SIGH! so didnt get in lars.

i love my pinky Christmas gift. and my beloved brother got me gifts too. thou not expensive and not really great one. but im touched. very touched. im more touched when i read the messages he wrote in the paper for me. he wrote that wish i'll get prettier year after year and he got me chocolate WINE chocolate from KITKAT. haha. thats why i say not very expensive and great. haha. and he ended with, your handsome brother and apologised for the BAD handwriting. haha!

bestie made me chocolate chips biscuit and i choose the heart shape one. but i dont know where is it now. its either i lost it somewhere. or i dont know already. i couldnt find it!! bestie!! can u make one more for me please? please???????????

serene made me chocolates. but i left it at Jolean's place. ARghh.. serene dear. would you make one more for me? please????????????

went Jolean's place during Xmas eve. jo and frens wanted to club but didnt lar. im broke. so stayed at Jol's place. drank and some puked and nua there. and vodka with Vanila Coke sucks loh! cannot take it. aRghh.. jol's sis got me vodka coke and i drank small cups of it and i started to turn red all over. and i admit i cant drink and i dont like drinking lar. haha.

oh. and YESSSS pays coming out.. pays coming out... pays coming out. im so excited for it. ive planned what to do once i got it. Jo's dont forget the DINNER i told you im bringing you to. no worries for the money. haha! im excited for that dinner with you. haha!!

time passes real fast. and soon its gonna be 2006. WOW. which also means im older already. man how can!! i wanna be eighteen forever. haha. dads coming back soon also. im so excited to see him returning. haha! just hoping that i could spend more time with him. haha!

if your wondering why i so like mount faber now. its coz of the "tree" haha! see the pic. how nice. i love it!


okie. and not forgetting to again wish my goodfriends from STC. amanda ting and gecko... happy birthday dearest! im so sorry that i forgotten to wish you on the exact day. forgive me.

oh. and my converse shoe will soon RIP. haha. im actually wearing my old spoiled converse shoe to work every single day. i couldnt get a new one coz im damn broke. haha! im feeling so sad for my poor feet. haha! soon. real soon.. new converse shoe. soon... haha

bye world!

its my day off from work today!

and im not relaxing/resting at home at all! sigh! i hope one of the off days i am able to sleep the whole day. haha!my eye bags are getting thicker and thicker. omg!

okie. i slept at 4+am this morning and got up at 10am to get ready to meet my friends over at bedok for breakfast. i had tow hui instead. reached ubi took the test and SIGH ive failed it! i shall not broad over it lar. i didnt work hard enough so ive myself to blame.

den went over to bugis to meet bestie. told her some good stuff and some bad stuff.. i miss her loads. do you miss me the way i do bestie? haha!

den meet my dear long time friend Kang ps over in town. walked around and she got me a wallet! thank God! ive been eyeing on that wallet for a tough long time! just hoping someone would get me one. and thanks to Kang ps for getting it as a BIRTHDAY pressie. im so sorry my dear that i didnt wish you on ya big day. so now i shall wish you. HAPPY BELATED BDAE DEAREST!

okie. had our dinner over at Swensens. super duper full man. haha! den started to walked down to the 24hrs kopitiam near SMU. slacked there and had photoshoot. haha! and poof.. off to home!

and here and the picturess~


do you think its nice? my long awaited OZOZO wallet. i realised my bdae pressie i always asks for wallets. haha!


this is Kang ps new wallet. from Pierre Cardin. phhhhuuuaaa..


she wanted to just take the pictures of the new wallet. but i wanted my face to be part of it. haha!


this Christmas Tree is in the Crown Prince Hotel. haha. small but its nice right? haha. i like it.


and so.. i wanted to be part of it also.


entertained for awhile at Swensens.


me and Kang ps. haha


this is town! busy road ya? haha


we walked for a little while and started snapping again


i love this i love this.




i kept staring at this. aint it just so nice? haha


and we continued walking and we're at Istana! and this is the lighting over there. i prefer this than the orange and red one.


cute doggie outside Plaza Sing.


and continued our journey.. somewhere near Hotel Rendezvour.


we've reached the 24hrs Kopitiam and we are both tired out. haha. had drinks and slacked..

and photoshoot session again








i dont think i look good here.








i look unglam. its only for the photoshoot. haha!


we're tired........








guess which is mine!!








look here......


look there........




the view from our seat to the road outside.

and this is how my day went. every min and sec. it wasnt wasted. haha! my day off.

ive received ya xmas card Ps. thanks! love you many!!

i have a big big wish for CHRISTMAS!!!!

hi WORLD

well i was wondering if i should blog now. since ive not been blogging for awhile which is so not me. cause im like always blogging. ive decided to drop one entry down.

work went alright. see alot of worldly customers wierd and tiko pek customers. i realised the world is indeed complicated. oh God.. please do a big big change soon.

okie. i got my results already. thou its not what i expected. but im contented lars. i got 3.1/4. dropped by 0.2. sigh. i got all Bs. no As. how sad.

and wed is my off day. going for Gior job interview and my Basic Theory Test. theres many things to do on that day la. gonna meet Kang ps too. provided shes able to. im waiting for ya sms my dear.

soon its gonna be xmas. oh God. its CHRISTMAS! i love christmas. i wanna celebrate christmas. i have a big big wish for christmas. haha!

was working today and a friend bought loadsa chocolates from CANDY EMPIRE for me! wow! thats so nice right! i love all the chocolates! to you, THANKS again! ahahaha

oh man. i wanna meet up with many people. but im working almost everyday. 6days out of the whole pathetic one week. how to meet the friends i wanna meeT? im waiting for february. haha! i'll look for people to get mad with me. haha!

my mind is in a mess now. i feel ive got to do many things but im lazy to think now. and it shows tat im tired. haha.

okie world. i'll update again. JL please go out with me soon. i got stuff to complain about and i want you to hear it from me not on phone but on face. haha!and i got stuff to ask also! first! GOT MISS ME? haha!

be blessed dear world.

dear world its my off day today~

slept this morning around 5+am. was chatting with a friend online la. while chatting i suddenly felt so excited in any upcoming things.

okie. the first im excited for is the BT test thats coming on the 21st dec. and secondly is xmas celebration den followed by my pay day and den countdown to 2006 and my ITE Graduation Day on the 11th Jan2006 and Chinese New Year den my long awaited day will then arrived, thats when dad's coming home. haha.

was suppose to go and apply for a better job today. but i was wondering if i could get a straight of 3 off days in february.and im dont know when i could start work too. and im afraid i couldnt get the off days so i guess i shall save this job opportunity for the time being. haha.

regarding the misconduct form thingy. i was too sensitive lar. it wasnt for me. it was for the other staff.

and finally im able to dig out some time to meet my dearest long time no see bestie. haha im really happy that we could meet up tonight. thou its a short short while. but its better than never meet at all. haha.

well i gtg as for now. going relative's place. i wanna play with my cousins. haha. thou they are quite old now ard P4-6 but theres one only like K dont know what. haha!

i miss bestie alot!

everything was alright till fifteens minutes before work ends.

theres ups and downs lars. sometimes work is alright and sometimes its so not. sigh..

okie. i served this room of AUNTIES at kbox today. auntie were saying minus minus to me. and i know nothing about what minus she wants. i asked u wanna lower the volume?she said no minus minus- holding on to the remote- and i asked u wanna page down isit? she said no minus minus. i was like HUH? what are you talking about what minus? and that pingpong came in and that auntie went to ask him about the minus minus thing and ping pong said: okie i'll pass you the key remote later. i was like oh.. so all along that minus minus was that key remote? and its only today that i know that key remote can change the sound of your voice when your singing.

i left the room thinking that ive got no business in there coz that auntie was talking to pingpong and pingpong knows what she wants while i dont. but later did i know that the auntie said i was rude. she said what kinda customer service is that. i was like HUH? i dont know what can i say.

and today theres not many customers. and so i stood still at the counter for a very long time. and theres this room of students. they came and stayed for quite a long time. i was asking like what time they should go. but i do not have the last call paper. and i didnt go and ask for it. so i bo chup that room and let them continue singing. and i got scolded for it.

i got scolded for not clearing the pax drinks i got scolded for standing there and do nothing. my supervisor said that he saw me bringing in the customers, picking up drinks from the bar everything. but not clearing the pax drinks, follow pax and follow tibits. and i got scolded for that lar. for all these ive earned myself a misconduct form. and i can lose alot up to 10-30 bucks if that supervisor tick alot of mistakes on that form. and friends, ive been working there for only a month only! wow. ive earn such a "good" award for myself ehz. i wasnt given a second chance i wasnt given any warnings. i was told off and a misconduct form was given. and i believe tat PINGPONG complained to my supervisor about that auntie thing. i was called in right after that pingpong met up with my supervisor and pp is a well known backstabber.

i was not angry or sad. im just unhappy im just feeling bothered. and i dont know what can i do. all i wanted was a better job. not kbox. it was a wrong choice right from the start la.it totally suck. its good singing enjoying there. but its not good working there.

theres still like 3 weeks to my another pay and thats when i shall quit tat job, provided i found another job la. im still tolerating... im still ren-ing.. im still trying my best to know what im doing at work. im trying my best to be good at work. but all seems that it aint enough... isit me or the kbox? my friends at work says its alright one and told me not to worrie much about it.. but im still worried.. about the form thing. im so bothered..

we have to wear the CHRISTMAS HAT today. and i think im looking terrible with it. i dont like it.

i went to mt faber to take a nice look at the Christmas tree and its BEAUTIFUL. i love it sooooo much. haha.

finally had my pineapple rice yesterday. haha. its so nice. haha

okie heres the pictures of the hat on me. hahaha


take one~


take two~


this is ah bao! haha. at my place.. beside sleep haha we did ugly faces. haha..

work went alright. nothing happen. haha. im dragging myself to work everyday. coz i dont like working. i just wanna play haha!

i miss alot of people now..

ITS MY OFF DAY TODAY WORLD!!!

dear world im home!

well. i slept the whole day at home la.till 6pm i got up and went to meet a friend. had Billy Bombers for dinner. man that Old Fashioned Sirloin Steak taste really damn good! well i asked for a medium well. its super nice man. haha.

took pictures today. finally one neoprint taken after a long long time. walked around town and played pool and i totally sucks at playing pool la. den chilled at Starbucks for awhile before i go home. ive enjoyed myself alot today. haha.

last night was working and i showed some COLOURS to that PINGPONG. haha. he always ask me to do things indirectly. so i also asked him. i said: hey pingpong. K3 noone already. and i stared at him. and he stared and me and i continued staring. and he said i go clean ah? i said: ya can you clean it? he replied orh okie. haha! im feeling damn great man. haha! we are all wearing the same top and we are all red collar. not black. haha so dont come and shit around. stupid pingpong. haha!

and thanks to ah bao for waiting for me from 7pm to 3am. just to have supper. haha. went Newton and had supper. super full man. chit chatted till erm.. 7plus am. and bao came over to bathe and rest. haha. i had a hard time waking her up and she had a hard time waking me up too. shes sooooo funny man. hahaha..

and tomorrow im working. starting from my noon shift! yes yes yes!!! wow. ive finally pulled through the one week torture! haha.

and regarding the previous entry.. ive realised. no matter someone close or kin or wadever. only friends know the real you. its the fact. and that person.. i shall not bother about whatever he say.coz for anything when he is upset or whoever he is unhappy with.. he'll just use words or wadever to discriminate the person. so for people like him.. not even worth me getting angry or sad about. after the long cries that left my eyes swollen for like erm.. 2 days. i shall annouce that im not who that person say i am. coz he aint God. and he is just one kin. a kin that know NUTS about me. how sad huh. and im not gonna bother him anymore. he wants me dead. i dont want him to be dead. for i still regard him as someone impt. he hates me. but i dont. for still he is someone impt. i care not he hates or wad. im so not gonna hate him. im still gonna love him and i'll try to still love him when im damn freaking pissed.

okie world.. end!

how do you feel when someone whom you thought is the best elder to you cursed you?

how do you feel when someone whom you thought is understanding to push all blames to you?

how do you feel when whoever you are in the past whatever you do in the past are brought forward to the present and you have to pay for it?

how do you feel when you joked with someone and that someone felt irritated instead and cursed you to be disfigured?

how do you feel when someone you thought is the best person you ever have called you a low life bimbo? a bitch?

how do you feel when you wanted to just explain something so hard that the person counldnt understand or even communicate properly?

how do you feel when someone says he/she hates you?

how do you feel when you are cursed to be disfigured and die soon?

how do you feel when someone who is so near to you yet so far to think that way of u?

how do you feel when you need someone to talk to and youve got noone?

how do you feel when someone think of you the way you are SOOO not the way that person think of? beside thinking of.. and saying YOU ARE? will you be questioning that are you the one that person say?coz im questioning myself.

am i so bad of a person that ive got no friends? or am i so that bad of a person?am i?

i didnt know im that bad till today really. im always wanting to change for the better. but why it turned up that that someone see me so differently?

that someone is the first person in my whole life to curse me say me in just a day. each time that someone will use words to demoralise me. and im really not strong enough to take each hit from that someone cause its far too hurting..

im very hurt by those merciless words.

well. i just got home from work.

im beginning to hate some people at work lars. and FIRST person i shall name out is PING PONG. he is such a pain lar. he is the one i always say the pea brain. everything to him is RA. and the one that LOVES to keep asking me to do things saying he's training me. WHAT RUBBISH! he is crazie he is siao i really cant take it. i wanna walk to him and throw all the trays all the water all everything at him!

such irritating people like him really spoil my day. i was washing the tibits bowl as ive got nothing to do. he came to the bar and said come i help you wash. i replied its okie. ive got nothing to do so i wanna do something. and he said nvm i do. i said no i wanna do. he said nvm let you rest. i was like deep down inside me i wanna throw all the things at him. when im not doing anything he keep asking me to do when HE HIMSELF dont wanna do. and when ive got things to do he ask me to REST instead! what the hell he want from me? do this also cannot do that also cannot. such a pain aint he?WHAT HE WANT MAN? WHAT?JUST WHAT?

he's like wanting me to do something he will ask INDIRECTLY. like jessie rm no... noone already. so i wanted to reply him. oh isit so?den? but i didnt. dont wanna have any tough time over there.i was wondering, since he knows that theres noone already shouldnt he be the one to do coz he saw that empty room before i do what. not saw already and ask other people to do ma. if thats so,when i see other rooms empty, can i also ask others to clean it instead? so i listened and went to cleaned that room. and not once but ALL the time he is asking me to do. and he got no manners. all MUTE. dont know how to say excuse me. damn rude.or sorry also dont know how to say. im so angry lar. working at kbox im angry everyday.

and some only know how to stay at the cashier and dont do things. i went to cleaned the rooms cleared pax drink key drinks all. and when the drinks are ready. I WAS EXPECTED TO DELIVER instead. why not sack everyone and i work can already? and one will say okie good lor next time when you are runner then see how lor. so i replied. when the time comes we'll see. damn.. what rubbish. i hate it man.

and i didnt know till today that we hafta wipe the drawers. and that PINGPONG was wiping and dont know say what crap la. and said im not kai qiao yet so i never wipe drawers. whats he talking about man? what crap? i wanted to tell him to just shut up and talk to the wall. the things he says practically have got either no point or its rubbish. i hate working with people like him.

ive decided. whatever things im not happy with that PINGPONG i shall SHOOT him. he will reply just one sentence. you have not kai qiao yet. coz he has got no other words to say. he is a server and im also a server. he is not my supervisor. why is he always giving me ORDERS? hmm. maybe whoever im not happy with at work i shall shoot straight away. and ive decided to quit when i got my second pay. i really cant take the PINGPONG and that someone there.

when my supervisor give orders for me ive got nothing to say. when a friend ask me to do i'll be willing to do coz he helped me too. some people there dont know WHATs TEAMWORK. for servers. im okie with just one person. im so not okie with THAT PINGPONG..his brain aint right. he needs to be operated.

i hate the okie lor next time u likdat i dont help you mindset. next time is next time's problem. for now its now. im living in the present not the past or future.. next time next time. whats with people in the complicated world man.

KBOX people esp night shift ones are super wierd ones. i cannot take it. only one seems normal to me. the rest.. ALIENS la.

God....... why do i meet such people?why? my BP getting higher already. sigh. tmr will be a long day too.. i hope that PINGPONG never appear when im around or just dont come near me. im afraid sooner or later i might just scream out loud at him i care not that im new there. im still human just like him. its just that he is bigger in size. thou it was claimed that he aint educated. or maybe thats the cause of why he's mentality is low. i dont care if he started working earlier than me or he has got more experience. some people work for ten years still dont know how to be responsible or even basic manners also dont know. so whats with started many months ahead of me. from tmr on if im pissed by him i shall tell him to shut up and get away from me. i REN WU KER REN Already~

i hate working at KBOX. i really hate. i dont like to be there. i hate the people there. not all of them but some people... if not that ive to work for some reasons. i die die also dont wanna work at kbox. anyway im looking for a better job too. anyone got GOOD lobang please let me know. kbox is killing me... esp that idoit PING PONG.

RAHHHH..... what a complicated world im living in. i just want peace happiness and joy thats all.

im freaking pissed.

just got home from work and im pissed lars. at work im alright lar. still alive. but someone irritated me. this person. its either he is a PATHETIC person or he is a person filled with HATRED for POLYTECHNICS. or he is JEALOUS that im PROUD to GRADUATE from ITE! and im PROUD to be an ITE STUDENT.

or maybe he's just aint happy with his life and trying hard to tell me what he thinks lars. which i totally couldnt compromise with him. coz he and i TOTALLY have got DIFFERENT views lar. whenever he talks, i just take it as he is bitching. he is forever talking about how BAD POLY is.or how bad this and that is.

he says im a failure and my heart wasnt angry but i was laughing at him instead. how poor this boy is. he can never understand what ITE students wants. he has the chance to enter polytechnics but he chose to drop out instead. but for us ITE students. we have to work extremely hard just to get into a poly. and we have to take a longer route. and he knows me less than a month he ACTED as if he know me damn well. -laughs- he loves to say people. i think if he dont say people he will DIE. haha. i feel sad for him instead. coz he goes around giving negative comments about people about things etc. his heart is like ITE is equivalent to ITS THE END. to me ITE is a second chance for me. at least im a ITE student and im happy. unlike him. he got so many to blame about. bth. i despise people with a CHARACTER like him.

and after working for a month or so.. i realised that believing whatever people words is called NAIVE. isit my fault for trusting people? or isit me that im gullible? whats wrong in trusting people? whats wrong man? someone come and enlighten me.

oh yes. he says im childish too. and why he says that? he said the way i speak the way i act. like small girl. im sorry man. if coz of my voice that makes him think so. thats his problem already. the way i act? man how i act man? theres once he defined im childish was when he threw something towards me. and i just AHHHHHH likdat. he said im childish. oh. he also said that he like older womans. i think he is lacked of LOVE thats why he wanna find older womans. he couldnt love people. theres different type of love. he's mind is all NEGATIVE. thank goodness im working there and aint that close with him thank goodness he is not in my friend list thank goodness that im telling myself to keep on keeping on at work. if not with people like him.. my BP will go damn high everyday.

and i like being young lehz. how? haha! better than looking chao lao. unlike him. such a pain he is. haha! a rude guy. i think he has got no purpose in life. he only know how to give negative remarks. how sad.. haha.

okie. thats one small little incident that i wanna talk about. haha

and heres the other one. man WADs WITH GUYS?

i cant take it when i got home after work and my house is untidy. i wanna scream out loud man. so whats with guys that couldnt keep their house cleaned? i shall not talk about the cleaniness lar. always talk about that im damn irritated.

not that i hate guys. i cant take their nonsense. some guys talk to me about nonsensical stuff and i felt bored instead just like that guy la. haha. and some lacked of courage to accept rejections. like one from kbox ytd. came with a girl to ask for number and i rejected right away and he ask again saying: shou zhen de. ke yi ma? i replied zhen de bu ke yi. and he walk off to his room and use the mic and say some rubbish out loud la. i just heard one SERVER word.

but why do i meet so many insignificant people? be it at work or outside.. why? are they in my life for one good reason? mould my character? if thats so, i need years man. coz i so hate people like them.

im still telling myself that working at kbox is for a short while. but working there a month is like a year lar. im there everyday but my mind my soul my heart aint there. coz i so dont wanna be there. for the pay's sake again i shall tolerate...

ARGhhh.. a bigger heart please.. a bigger heart to REN those people......

kbox friends are nice.. its just one or two that spoils my mood la. haha. but its okie. love them for who they are....... i shall TRY...

im tired. nights my faithful readers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GOR GOR AKA WILSON TAY!

haha! wilson tay is 20 already. oh. thats so old! haha!

im waiting for my dad's call. and till now he has yet to phone me!! working in taiwan really soooooooooooooooooooo busy mehz? calling he BELOVED daughter also hard.. but nvm, i still love him alot alot..

im a day closer to CHRISTMAS. ohhhhhhhhh.. christmas im coming. eventhough im working on both eve and day. i shall celebrate after work. haha!

ive been working night shift these few days. im feeling very shagged almost everyday. but the people im working with are very nice people except for one also known as PEA brain. i just said he has peanut brain and everyone started calling him peanut brain or pea brain already. opps. the night shift people aint that bad i feel. i dont know abt the morning shift people. im afraid i might have a tough time at work when ive changed to noon shift. but nvm. all things happens for a good reason lar! what reason? hehe. a challenge for me lor! pass liao can grow a level higher worz. haha! benefits me lehz. haha!!!

my brother called for pizza!! and pizza's on its way now. haha!!! i wanted Lasagne but im afraid i cant finish it. haha! sighs. its his birthday and i got him nothing. coz im broke la. thou i got my pay CHEQUE yesterday. its less than two hundred please. haha! shop liao den all gone liao lor! January pay's much much much much more higher!!! haha!!i cant wait for Jan06 to arrive! haha.

whats my new year's resolution?
hmm.. i haven thought of it yet haha!

whats my goal for 2006?
hmm. actually i haven thought of it also. but the First utmost important is to GET into Higher Nitec course thats secretarial. and pass it with a GPA 3.5 or above.

2nd utmost is to sleep less and start waking up early and stop being lazy. haha.

and the rest.. shall update again. haha.

whats my WISH for 2006?
AHEM.AHEM.and AHEM......... haha! BESTIE knows..

whats my wish for CHRISTMAS?
my granny to be healthy!!!! and strong!!! and happy!!! dad to be safe and healthy. brother? haha. to lose weight and start saving. me? start saving and stop being forgetful. haha! grandpa? i miss him the most! i miss asking him am i pretty with my new clothes or new shoes. i miss the way he disturb me saying that theres is a xiao qiang. i miss his blur blur look when i ask if he had eaten already. i miss hearing him coughing and dragging the living room's chair. i miss his AIYA when he sits down. i miss seeing him eating while i feed. i miss massaging his hands. i miss the times when he cycle me to school. i miss the times when he brought me chu zhang fen. i remember the times when he chased after the bus cause my brother fell asleep. in all i just miss him soooo much lar. grandpa's in heaven now so i think he's got what he want there. i wonder what does he wish for me? be a good girl? hehe im already a good girl.

say it isnt so. tell me your not leaving. say you changed ur mind now that im only dreaming.

ps. guess the KBox picture was taken at what time? haha its 4AM! wanna know how i look like at 4am? take a look there! ahahaha! i needa facial soon!

boring day at work~

its sunday and its super boring day for me lars. cannot take it. theres like not MANY customer today lors. and im like standing there doing nothing can. so boring~~

and so. i find things to get myself occupied. haha and guess what i did? haha..

First, i started drawing...


And after drawing im still bored.. SO. i started WRITING


After WRITING im STILL so BORED. so i started to WRITE MORE


AND STILL im AM STILL SOOO BORED..so i decided to CONTINUE..


and just in case u are wondering what i wrote. haha i wrote im freaking bored. den im damn bored and den SIAN. haha.

so this is how bored i am when im at work today. so it means that theres not many customer today. haha

at 2++am we've nothing to do so we played pool! haha. they on the music so loud and its all TECHNO. omgDness. blasting it out loud please. i couldnt hear when i left rm no, 801. so damn loud la. den after playing pool with my supervisor and a fren. i went to sing instead. i went to the other room to sing. haha. and i still dont know how to use the remote la. i tell you, thou im working at KBox.. i still dont know how to use the remote there.

played and slacked.. den off i go home. work ended at 3am today. hahaz. Christmas is coming and im asked if i wanna stay till late to celebrate during the EVE and i'll be paid. haha. as for now.. i dont think i want to stay. c'mon its Christmas please. haha. i die also wanna do smth BETTER during that day! care not even its EVE or wad. haha.

my supervisor super good today! haha. he cooked Tomyam noodle for all staff. haha. and he used the microphone from the bar and said: all servers, TOMYAM's READY! and all of us run into the bar and started eating. haha!!

and im tired now. haha. sleep well world..

its a sunday.. what a sunday for me..

usually people stays at home or out to enjoy on a sunday. but i cant. hurhur. i have to work. sian half already.

work went alright for these few days. nothing much pissed me. haha. just that the transportation problem.

my brother is home today and he cooked Herbal Chicken. aint he such a good cook? i dont even know how. haha.

and this is one pic of me when im working.taken by a customer. i think i look super ugly. so damn shagged face..




this is one very tall customer of kbox. haha. or maybe im short. i said MAYBE only hor. haha

the rest below are taken when im out with JR for Harry and The Goblet Of Fire!!!!


im in the cinema..........


while JR was enjoying popcorns. i entertained myself...


and he is back now! hahahaha

and i really miss taking pictures.. bestie please go out with me soon... im rotting at Kbox already.

love ya all readers!!!

hi my dear faithful readers!

haha. i slept at 7++am and got up at 1pm. 6 hours of rest and the rest of the day im going out and den to work. wow. give me the strength O Lord. haah

before i got to bed this morning i thought of what to write here. but when im here i totally dont remember a single thing. how good.

my memory is failing me. oh man. sigh. nvm. anyway. my shift has CHANGED. sadly im in the noon shift already. and its from 2pm -10pm how good? sigh. i cant go out and PLAY! omgDNess. hurhur.

anyways. ive changed my friendster settings already. for some reasons. sigh.. people making me afraid. or maybe im a dan xiao mao. haha!

sooner or later i will quit that job. its inviting uninvited problems to my life man.

my brother is going to celebrate his bdae today. SIGH. i also WANNA GO~~~~ sentosa i wanna GO. to the sun i wanna turn DARKER to the moon.. stop shinning so bright. im looking pale all the time please.

its gonna be a long long day today................................

dear world. its 603am now. Good morning!!!

im relaxing my legs now.. why? cause i just got home from a long walk all the way from saint andrews to my house. haha. Thank God for my strong legs! hahaha.

i cant think of what to write now. im shagged. super shagged. im trying to keep on keeping on at work... im TRYING.

oh.. theres tooooooooooo many customers today. theres TWO functions today please. omGDness. haha

i shall continue again. im tired..

nights my dear faithful readersssss..

its 248pm and i just got up from bed. man how late. hate it. not that i wanna sleep so long. all because work ended late.

well yesterday. my first day as a full timer. erm. everythings alright yesterday. nothing goes wrong. hmm. i wasnt smiling all the time lar. haha. ive no idea why when the happy me comes out, people will think im playing not working or think im not serious. so i'll just be serious.

got this guy. dont wanna name him out. dont like him. his brain is so filled with nuts la. peanut brain. everything to him is RA. crazie fellow. normal topic he can also link it to RA. he loveS to ask me to do things. saying that he is training me to work fast. wad rubbish. so to train me to work fast. ive got to do alot. he thinks im God eh? in a day train me i can work freaking fast eh? so next time employ newcomers. the seniors dont have to work. coz the newcomers needs to train to be fast. so they have to do most job. what rubbish. he still got the CHEEK to ask if i felt as if im tortured. how stupid. why not just get a ROBOT? whatsmore i need time to learn too. fast?how fast?

and one more. he makes me feel like slapping him. the bartender brought out pineapples for us to eat. so i eat it. and damn that stupid guy say wow jessie you eat till so sexy. i was like HUH? i just eat ong lai loh. he said that he wasnt looking at me. so i answered then why did you say that then? den he answered i saw.... so on lar. all rubbish.. overall he was looking at me eating ong lai la. and the supervisor asked him to teach me those pricing thing.. he stand so close and i tell you.. he got BADBREATH.

oh yes. KBox says they got transport for the staff to go home. i tell you.... ya.. but not ALL PLACES. thank God one uncle agreed to drive me home yesterday. if not i really have to walk from town to home. why town? ive got no idea why all the staffs from every branch have to gather there to take the transport. so im there loh. i guess i shall walk home today. i dont wanna go town. haha. i ended work at 3am but i got home ard 5am. how early. coz have to wait for transport loh. if i walk ytd. i'll be home by 4am.

thank God that im working morning shift after next wed. phew.. finally the supervisor allowed me to work morning shift.

and today work start at 8pm but i gotta be there at 6pm. RAhhh.coz of a meeting... since im there for a meeting.. am i paid? 2 hours early loh. can earn 12bucks okie. haha!

and pays coming out on the FIFTH!!! YEAHHHH!!!

Christmas..im coming... since im working on that day too. but im working in the morning hahah! after that. christmas.. here i come!!!!!

oh yes.. for KBox, all full timers cannot ask for off day on weekends. CANNOT one. our off days are only from mon to thurs. how sad man. but nvm.. morning shift.. haha its okie. work hard now play later loh. haha.

oh..before i go, i love you my dear readers!!!! be Blessed everyone.

once again, CAN SOMEONE KINDLY KNOCK ME WITH SOMETHING HARD?

oh man. the time now is 9.30am and i got into my lala land only at 3am. and got up at 5++am cause im THIRSTY and believe me, its my FIRST time waking up because im thirsty. usually i wake up all because of the cramps im having. but today different.

and i went back to sleep but got up again at 7++am. and i forced myself to go back and sleep again..and sadly, i got up at 8++am and i stayed on my bed tossing around hoping to get more sleep. i couldnt.. turned and covered myself with blanket use the pillow to cover my face and all, i couldnt sleep. so i got up and blog loh.

im so disturbed. all cause of that job man. not that im EXCITED to go and work. its when i thought of the timings, the people. oh man. i cant sleep. i dont know what can i do man. i couldnt sleep when i think that im working tonight and worried that i might not be able to take it. throughout the entire night im thinking about it. i sooooo cannot sleep!!!

and im singing: What A Friend We Have In Jesus etc... in my dream please. dont know why. so i was asking God to help me lors. help what? help me so i can change to morning shift? or help me when theres trouble at work lors. help me when i meet those insignificant people. oh and better tell me what to do at work so i wouldnt ask soooooooooo many questions lor. and the best, get me a better job. haha!

i know i should pray specifically. but theres too many that i want from work. i know sooner or later i still hafta settle that timing thing.. but.. sigh.. im just procrastinating lar.

i dont know what will happen tonight and im worried for it. worrying now is like no use. its like wasting my time worrying about something that might not happen? but.. im still worried... i dont wanna face the people there. i dont wanna be there. i guess tonight will be REN ZAI XIN BU ZAI liao. haha. if i were to get my Cert earlier.. i could even work in an office already. if i WERE to GET it. and HOW i WISH to GET it ASAP.

and results coming out on the 15th. theres too many IFs in my mind now. eg. if i were to get an A for all subjects. will i? can i? actually i wanted A all along. Bs didnt step into the picture. everyone wishes for A anyway. but i wish for an A that im able to get. not those wish but cannot get one.

sigh. im sucha BUSY person. why? haha! cause im so busy thinking and worrying. -shake head-

if i were to tell you that ive enjoyed my job, it obviously lacked of conviction. but i really did enjoyed for the FIRST FEW DAYS. FIRST FEW DAYS people...

hurhur. i cant sleep i cant sleep i cant sleep i cant sleep.. God please give me my beloved sleep!!!!

i was chatting with a friend online. talked about something missing.. actually i feel it too. and now i know whats missing. ive lost the confidence i used to have. ive lost the faith i used to have. ive lost the dependence in Him too.

so what am i now?

im fustrated. i need to sleep!!